Hi homies! Welcome to March! I have a bunch of gigs this month If you tryin to come, i’ll leave a link to my website with all the dates. Haha. Anyway, today I want to share with you some things that I don’t usually talk about openly, but I feel need to be said so maybe certain people will understand me a bit more. So, let’s dive in!
- My dad (AKA my homie, my sound person, my science buddy, my driver, my provider of food I want, my smartie, the sweetest person on earth, etc) has been sick with a rare autoimmune disease since I was little. The disease is called Myasthenia Gravis. It is a chronic autoimmune neuromuscular disease that causes weakness in the skeletal muscles, which are responsible for breathing and moving parts of body. In laymen terms, his muscles can get very weak and in some cases it can prevent him from breathing properly. His eyelids start to droop along with slurring of his words around late night. We have almost lost him a few times, the 1st time on Thanksgiving day when he went into a crisis. I was about 9 and we all rushed to the hospital in Norman, Oklahoma not knowing what was going on. After a few months of tests, we got a diagnosis. A crisis is when the muscles that control breathing weaken to a point where someone needs a ventilator to breathe. This has happened a few times and is just as scary each time. I have seen my dad hooked up to machines, poked by needles so much that the veins in the middle of his arm (i don’t know what it’s called…Basilic? Cephalic? I’m not a doctor lol) were so purple. He has almost died in front of me and actually has died once. But it was when he was boy. Pretty cool story actually. Anyway, my dad used to go to Zale Lipshy Hospital to get Plasmapheresis. Basically, it’s where they use this machine to remove harmful antibodies in plasma and replace them with healthy plasma (donating plasma is a heck yes). Long story short, seeing that growing up and having moments where I really thought I was going to lose my dad, has affected me. I realized mortality in a way that most children don’t. My mom went through times where she was basically a single parent. Thankfully, my dad is in remission! He hasn’t needed a treatment in over a year! He’s doing much better and healthier. What I want people to get out of this fact is that I don’t think i’m invincible. I really never have. Anything can go wrong and people get hurt. Life is short even when you’re young. I don’t condone self destructive behaviors that involve hurting your physical health. Obsessive drinking, abusing narcotics, or controlled substances, smoking, etc. I think it is disgusting and there is a better way to deal with things. Be thankful for the body you have because not everybody has that. My dad wanted to be in the military, but due to his ailment (along with being allergic to general anesthetics) he couldn’t be. Speaking of which, when my dad was in the hospital once, they had to put a catheter in his jugular without any anesthetic. Get you a dad that strong. Like I said, don’t ruin your body with things that are not worth it. There are many people who wish they had a healthy body.
2. Me, too. That is all I am going to say about that. Due to that, I am hurt in a way that is hard to overcome. I have and am, but dating is not something i’m necessarily rushing into at the moment.
3. I am stubborn. I like to blame it on the fact that I am a Taurus, but either way, I am stubborn. With that, my career means everything to me and I am very stubborn about my goals for it. I have a pretty good work ethic along with being a realist. It is hard for me to tolerate people who are artists but don’t put in the effort and maintain professionalism. I never want to be pretentious but I also don’t ever want to be seen as indecorous. It’s a fine line and balance. I like to have fun, but I also like to keep climbing the ladder of my own version of success. The “party lifestyle” is not the life i’m looking for no matter how typical it is for musicians. Balance is everything, my dudes. I don’t necessarily care what choices you make but if they start affecting my life in a negative way, I care. I have spent many years letting myself get walked all over, but I am done with that. It has gotten me nowhere and I hate that it took my so long to realize it. We all have our personal lives, and I think that is where it belongs, in private. But also, be yourself and balance is key, something that we will spend our lives figuring out.
That’s all I can think of that I feel comfortable sharing. I hope this helps ya’ll understand me and my crazy self a little more. I love writing and I hope ya’ll enjoy what i’m writing. I’m going to try to start writing every week. If there’s any topics you’d be interested in hearing, let me know! I love ya’ll and am wishing you prosperous times!
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